I’m getting married!
06 Jul 2009 1 Comment
in Family, Friends, My Ever Changing Life, Single No More, Singleness
Up, Up, & Away
Ok readers…it finally happened! I’m engaged! Its been a whirl-wind since it happened, but here’s the scoop. He proposed in a hot-air balloon, with all my family following the balloon.
He arranged with my best friends’ family (who own a balloon), to have “help” in the process of lifting off…”probably won’t go up,” I was told. So as we were talking about doing this around my family, they all were like, “that’s fun, can we come watch, the kids would love it!” So I was like sure, come on!
When the day finally came, we showed up and I was clueless! My whole family was there, cameras in hand (still I had no clue). We helped in the set-up and then Debbie (my best friend’s mom) asked if I wanted to go up. I said sure, I wouldn’t pass up the opportunity. She asked if John would go. Knowing he’s weary of heights, I said she’d have to ask him. So she did and he said to me, “if you, I’ll go.” So I said, “I”m going, so get in the basket.” So we went up, talking about overcoming fear and whatnot. I thought he was nervous b/c of the flying…not so much! 
So after awhile up in the air the pilot was taking our picture, then John turned to me and said something sweet. (I don’t remember what it was) I didn’t believe he would propose on that day, much less in a balloon so I was like, “stop being corny.” Then he said, “No, really, I mean it” and continued with the sweet stuff. I repeated, “Stop being corny.” Then he realized that wasn’t working so he pulled out the ring. I couldn’t believe my eyes…there it was! Right in front of me. This was it! I started screaming, and jumping up and down, and I said yes before he could even finish asking me to marry him. After we hugged and kissed and then the pilot (my best friend’s dad) let the crowd below know (through a walkie talkie) that “we have an affirmative, the ring is on her finger.” It was SO amazing! After landing I was greated by my best friends with hugs and silly girlie squeals…and then my family made their way through to the balloon. It was so special to share with everyone!
Retelling the story!
Our balloon, and the other that also went up that day.
My Neice watching the flight.
This is about when it happened!
How do you wait?
19 May 2009 Leave a Comment
in Jobs, Money, My Ever Changing Life, Prayer, Randomness, Singleness
I find myself in another season/time of waiting. I am working, YEAH! But in my job, I wait for instructions on what to do. I get something to do, and I do it, then I wait for more instructions. I assert myself, and do things by my own intiative, then I wait for more work to do. So I “hurry up and wait.” I am in a great relationship with a man that I love, YEAH! We have great times together, he loves me, and we want to get married. We know we are going there, YEAH! We talk and talk, and the money isn’t there for a ring yet. Things keep coming up. So, I wait. I want to plan things, but I can’t till we’re engaged. So, I wait. SO, how do you wait? This season is SO full of “hurry up and wait.” I want to just enjoy the time, right where I’m at, so I don’t look back and say, “how did I get here?” This is the season of life that I’ve hurried through before, just to miss things. I don’t want to miss the little things this time. I want to enjoy. Lord, help me to enjoy this season you have me in. I know if you wanted me in another time, I’d be there…but obviously you don’t…so here I am. Help me wait.
In the quietness of the day
31 Mar 2009 Leave a Comment
in Ministry, My Ever Changing Life, Randomness
I’m sitting in my office (in my apartment) re-reading some of my entries from the past. I came upon “restore my joy.” It was one I had written after spending sometime on my back and an ER visit after a muscle spasm in my back. It was not a fun experience. But realizing that my eyes were focused on circumstances and not the Lord, I needed a “spiritual pick-me-up.”
Its much like these days. I’m not depressed or anything. I’m just in need of a pick-me-up. I’m in the transitions of life. I begin “work” tomorrow. I say work loosely because my official start date is tomorrow, but after talking with Mark (my boss) he’s not sure what I’ll be doing right away. There are still preparations the need to take place in order to hand over the day-to-day administration to me. So while it’s gonna be a bit more relaxing to know that I’ll be making money again soon, its a bit unnerving to not know what it’ll entail.
This whole season has been a trying one. Its been full of waiting, watching, expecting, and trusting. The underlying question is always, “Do you trust me?” It’s God’s way of telling me to let it go, and let Him handle things. It’s true, from the problems I’ve had with my back, to my jobs, to my love life. When he handles it, it goes better with little worry from me. I know this new position in my life is more then a vocation. It’s more then a way He is going to provide for me…I know that He has readied this next step in my life for me since…well, let’s just say since WAY before I was even remotely aware. Why am I so dependant on outside circumstances? Why do I have such a need to “do” things? Why can’t I just be still?
Transitions, Changes, and …
27 Mar 2009 1 Comment
in Family, Friends, Ministry, My Ever Changing Life, My Writing Life, Singleness
“…” usually means there is more to the thought, but the writer couldn’t find words to fit the situation. And that is the case here, I can’t find a word to fit with the rest of the title for this post.
The one things constant in everyone’s life is change. And so I guess I’m normal now beacause the last year of my life has been that, changing. It was about a year ago that the changes were happening for me. I knew that they were coming, I’d known for a long time, but it was around March of 2008 that they really started kicking into effect. The place I had known and loved as a church home, work, and over-all “safe-place” was coming apart right in front of my eyes. The way God moves in the lives of churches and the people within one church is a mystery to me (part of what I’m trying to be more sensitive to these days). Let’s just say God has people together to form a church, but he also has people together for seasons. And it was clear that a season was ending. It was tough…more then tough. I don’t think I cried so much in my life. It was an intense time of letting go. Letting go is never easy. Abraham had to let go of Isaac, his one and only son, his heir to the promise from God. I found much strength in the life of Abraham because he didn’t know what God would do with Isaac, the knife, and the sacrifice. BUT, he did know God and he trusted in Him totally! I had to learn that the hard way. I had to go up the mountain and take a knife to a relationship, take a knife to my comfort zone, and kill myself. But I’m getting it back, better then before. Enough about that…
Since then, I worked for a company that sells agricultural supplies. It wasn’t my “dream job” by any stretch of the imagination, but it was good while it lasted. The way in which I found the job (really the job found me) was full of God. The outcomes from being there are still being reeped. It provided for me for that time. About a month ago, they let me go…economy stinks! When taking the news of my release I wasn’t scared, I knew it was part of the plan. And so for about a month, I’ve been looking only to be “found” again.
Since leaving the church, I have been connected with some of the leadership who also left the church. There is a new ministry being planted as a result. This ministry is based on the 24/7 prayer movement God is orchestrating all over the world, in such places as IHOP-KC. Our goal is to initiate a 24/7 prayer room right here in Northeastern, Ohio. I am excited (and nervous) about what this is going to be and how it’ll play out here locally. It is an amazing move of God to draw His people closer to himself, and ready the bridegroom for His return! For me, its been a divine set up personally for the last few years. Someone asked me what this last year of my life has been about. I told them its been the toughest times, but also the sweetest. If I had to pick a one word theme for it, it would be “intimacy.” The Lord is teaching me intimacy in SO many ways.
One of those ways is through John. John and I have been friends for about two years. We met at church through the young adult ministry we were involved with. He was on the missions trip to Jamaica. Although thoughts of John and I together had popped into my mind a few times, it was never something entertained for many reasons. After leaving the church, and looking for a new job, John and I would talk on random occassions, as our group would still hang out from time to time. The job that I found (that really found me) was the one working with the agricultural supply company. John works there, in the warehouse! Ironic,huh? Well, it wasn’t my choice of jobs, but it was at the “right” time, they paid the “right” amount, and it just seemed like the “right” place to go. So I did, we started dating and here we are over 6 months later, and beginning to plan a life together! YEAH!!!
All of these things have played together to write the story of my life. It’s been rough, it’s been up and down…but God is the author of it all, so it’s good! There are SO many details that I’ve neglected to write, but simply because I don’t want to recall them all. Keeping with it, it has been a season of transitions, changes, and … (a whole bunch of other stuff to keep me going!)
Serious Updating Needed!
27 Mar 2009 Leave a Comment
in Blogging, My Ever Changing Life
So with the request to help my mom’s co-worker with a blog, came my own searching about blogs and such. This search lead me first to my own blog, which ashamedly I had not updated for well over five months. I realized that this needed my attention. I am hoping with a new chapter (this will be shared as part of the updates) opening in my life very soon, I can re-adapt blogging back into it!
I am almost embarrassed to read on the “about me” page that I am “soon” to be an aunt. Well that little girl is now 2 and half and there is another one on the way. The whole Pampered Chef thing…I did that for about 8 months, which ended in January 2008! I am still living in my apartment, still driving the Chevy (fully paid off – and in the body shop repairing the damage I caused when I re-ended a lady last week!) I’m 29 now, not 27 anymore. And I’m not working at the church anymore, although my heart is still for this young adult generation!
So my first update will be (aside from this post) an update to the “about me” page. And then probabaly deleting the “fun pictures” page, as I have those and OH so many more pictures posted elsewhere. And then I’ll be back to write an quick update on me and my life at this point. Its been a complete season of transitions…and as you can tell from the many changes from the “about me” stuff…ALOT has changed and is changing.
