Surrounded

Ya ever feel like the world is pressing in on you, like you’re surrounded from every side? Have you ever felt like if there was just one more thing that happens that you’d explode? That’s where I’m at right now. The funny thing about it, though…I haven’t exploded and my “supposed point of explosion” has come and gone. I have been brought to a point of TOTAL surrender to Jesus like never before. Its funny how we (I have too) give “all” of ourselves to Him, only to find out there is another piece lurking deep in the corners of your heart. How many times have I given him my all only to take it back the next day or the next time the issue arises. This time, I’m not taking it back. I don’t want it back. There is nothing I can do with any of this! I am hopeless without him. Maybe that’s just where he wants me. Helpless in his arms. Lord, keep telling me “it’s OK” because if I can’t hear that, I’m lost in the fog.